5 is a lucky number in Asia. Not for me. This is now my 5th pregnancy loss. I thought this time would be different. But that's what I've though each previous time the double lines show up on the test, only to have my heartbroken. All over again. This time it happened early, 5 weeks. … Continue reading Number 5
Only 2 more sleeps in Singapore! The packers are at my apartment, boxing up my books and clothes, I'll see them again in 10 weeks when they arrive in London. It's a strange feeling to be leaving. I didn't intend to cut short my time here, but after the heartbreak of earlier this year, and … Continue reading Moving time
It's Mother's Day weekend across the US, Singapore and Australia. The UK celebrates earlier in the year. As a family we have never done much for Mother's Day, Father's Day, even birthdays. My parents find them all too commercial, and as an adult I agree, it sounds cheesy, but we don't need a specific day … Continue reading Sunrise
Here's a turtle from this time last week in the Maldives! I'm having the laziest weekend on record! It's amazing how much free time I have, my Uni course has finished (passed with merit...geektastic!), I decided not to work this weekend and instead have read 2 books. Bliss! Seeing my friend tonight, he's in town … Continue reading Electric shocks
Finally feeling like the haze has lifted a little. It has been a difficult few weeks and I feel like I've been a robot, just going through the motions everyday until it's time to go to bed at night, wake up and do the same again the next day. Mum has gone home now and … Continue reading Moving forwards
I was naively expecting to wake up from the surgery and be filled with hope and positivity...ready to move on to the next stage in this journey. The reality was quite different! Being naturally optimistic is generally a good thing for me, but it does mean I fall hard when things don't work out. The … Continue reading Evacuation complete!
This past week has been awful. Looking back now it is amazing that a whole week has passed, it feels like a blur, but at the time the days, hours, minutes and seconds felt like an eternity. And now a week has passed. 7 full days since the horror of last Friday morning. And I … Continue reading Action
I haven't been able to write for a while. Even though the words have been spinning around and around my head. For the first 2 weeks, I didn't write because I didn't want to jinx the positive pregnancy tests! My heart was bursting. Each day I did a new test (zero willpower to wait for … Continue reading Ruins
It means Pregnancy Test in Spanish! I bought 2 yesterday, because I know I won't be able to hold out the full 2 week wait! Today is my last day in Spain, tonight I fly to Tokyo via a few hours in Istanbul. I'm looking forward to getting stuck in to work, and catching up … Continue reading Prueba de Embarazo
Yesterday it rained. All day. And I found myself falling in to a bad place. My friend came to visit for the weekend, which was a fantastic distraction. She's amazing, and it was so refreshing to spend time with a good friend, it has been a while. It was so good to see her, and … Continue reading Embryo on board!