On my way to the clinic to get my blood drawn for the second time after a lab mixup with 17 of the tubes they drew last time. I'm feeling very fed up today and didn't sleep well last night. There was a huge thunderstorm and I just lay there listening to it passing over. … Continue reading And begin again
I'm getting my zen on (despite the setback with the blood tests). It is one of my favourite times of year in Japan, blue skies, crispy mornings and autumn leaves. Check out the Gingko trees in Tokyo yesterday.
This time last week I was in Barbados. It was so good to get out of the region, visit somewhere new and spend quality time with my best friend. Part of my reason for travelling all that way was the Barbados Open Water Swim Festival. I took part in two of the races and one … Continue reading Barbados
Walking from my brother's house to the tube station through Finsbury Park. Taking photos I got some funny looks from the commuters rushing for their trains, but the morning was magical! Autumn leaves, early morning fog and crisp air. It felt so good to be away from the Singapore humidity.
What is it about flying that turns me in to a blubbering wreck as soon as we reach cruising altitude? The cheesiest of inflight movies has me sobbing. I used to think it was the copious red wine I drank pre-flight, but I've cut that out and am still an emotional wreck! Perhaps it's the … Continue reading Tears at 40,000 feet
After a brilliant Skype consultation with the clinic in Spain, (moments after relaxing in this incredible flower bath in Bali!) they have sent me through a homework assignment! Here's the list of blood tests they want me to get before we start treatment: Clotting studies (PT and APTT) Complete Blood Count AMH Hormone Complete Serology: HIV … Continue reading A la carte blood test menu
Was there something in the water? This week three friends have announced their pregnancies. Each time I am hit with a mixture of happiness and joy for them, and jealousy and bitterness. Will this go away if I have a child? Or will I always feel a pang or resentment towards friends who seem to … Continue reading Compassion & kick-ass warriors
Heard back from Dr B. He has an amazing way of always making me feel hopeful, even in the midst of bad news and set-backs. He liked the idea of doing a full cycle in Spain and is going to have my medical records sent over. I'll contact the clinic this week and start making … Continue reading Hola! Plans for 2019….
Today is 10dpt5dt still nothing. Not even a hint of a line. I know I'm not pregnant. I have emailed Dr B to let him know. I don't know what to do next. But I feel that it would be a mistake to go straight in to another transfer (my last frozen embryo). Clearly what … Continue reading What next?
Today is 7dp5dt. I caved and did a POAS yesterday, BFN. Went out and purchased an early response test, tried it first thing this morning, also BFN. Spent an hour reading stories where BFNs later because BFPs, but I just don't think that's the case for me. This means there is only one frozen embryo … Continue reading Looks like another failed attempt