A few years ago in Sydney (not long after my second miscarriage) I signed up for an 8 week evening course "Get Your Shit Together". It is fair to say that today, my shit is definitely not together! I'm back in a funk. Sleepless nights, crying, lots of anger. It could be that my period … Continue reading G-Y-S-T
Here's a turtle from this time last week in the Maldives! I'm having the laziest weekend on record! It's amazing how much free time I have, my Uni course has finished (passed with merit...geektastic!), I decided not to work this weekend and instead have read 2 books. Bliss! Seeing my friend tonight, he's in town … Continue reading Electric shocks
After a blissful long weekend in Maldives I'm back in Singapore. Feeling very low this week. The morning I got back I had a scan at the hospital. It wasn't good. The drugs they gave me helped to trigger my period, but when it came it only lasted a day and I knew something wasn't … Continue reading Let down
It's a sunny Sunday afternoon here in Singapore. I've had my best weekend since the miscarriage. An influx of visitors from overseas have forced me out of the apartment. And what felt originally like faking it turned out to be quite fun. It felt good to catch up with old friends and colleagues, none of … Continue reading Singapore Self-Care
I was naively expecting to wake up from the surgery and be filled with hope and positivity...ready to move on to the next stage in this journey. The reality was quite different! Being naturally optimistic is generally a good thing for me, but it does mean I fall hard when things don't work out. The … Continue reading Evacuation complete!
This past week has been awful. Looking back now it is amazing that a whole week has passed, it feels like a blur, but at the time the days, hours, minutes and seconds felt like an eternity. And now a week has passed. 7 full days since the horror of last Friday morning. And I … Continue reading Action
I haven't been able to write for a while. Even though the words have been spinning around and around my head. For the first 2 weeks, I didn't write because I didn't want to jinx the positive pregnancy tests! My heart was bursting. Each day I did a new test (zero willpower to wait for … Continue reading Ruins
It means Pregnancy Test in Spanish! I bought 2 yesterday, because I know I won't be able to hold out the full 2 week wait! Today is my last day in Spain, tonight I fly to Tokyo via a few hours in Istanbul. I'm looking forward to getting stuck in to work, and catching up … Continue reading Prueba de Embarazo
Yesterday it rained. All day. And I found myself falling in to a bad place. My friend came to visit for the weekend, which was a fantastic distraction. She's amazing, and it was so refreshing to spend time with a good friend, it has been a while. It was so good to see her, and … Continue reading Embryo on board!
I heard from the clinic today. Of the 14 eggs collected, 12 were mature, and of those 12, 7 successfully fertilised. It's so difficult not to feel down-heartened at the dramatic reduction from 14 down to 7, but I must keep reminding myself, IVF is a numbers game, and all it takes is one healthy … Continue reading Numbers game