Was there something in the water? This week three friends have announced their pregnancies. Each time I am hit with a mixture of happiness and joy for them, and jealousy and bitterness. Will this go away if I have a child? Or will I always feel a pang or resentment towards friends who seem to … Continue reading Compassion & kick-ass warriors
I'm on a last minute trip to Ubud, Bali. My friend J, former accountant now digital nomad, is staying here. One thing I love about being based in Singapore is having Asia on the doorstep. I took an early flight and spent the day working from a cafe overlooking the rice terraces. Couldn't ask for … Continue reading Breathe
Heard back from Dr B. He has an amazing way of always making me feel hopeful, even in the midst of bad news and set-backs. He liked the idea of doing a full cycle in Spain and is going to have my medical records sent over. I'll contact the clinic this week and start making … Continue reading Hola! Plans for 2019….
Today is 10dpt5dt still nothing. Not even a hint of a line. I know I'm not pregnant. I have emailed Dr B to let him know. I don't know what to do next. But I feel that it would be a mistake to go straight in to another transfer (my last frozen embryo). Clearly what … Continue reading What next?
Today is 7dp5dt. I caved and did a POAS yesterday, BFN. Went out and purchased an early response test, tried it first thing this morning, also BFN. Spent an hour reading stories where BFNs later because BFPs, but I just don't think that's the case for me. This means there is only one frozen embryo … Continue reading Looks like another failed attempt
I'm a 37 year old (...how did that happen?!) currently based in Singapore. I have been single for...ages! My big life plan involved marriage at 24, children at 27 and 29, a house with a garden and a pet dog. I don't know where I went off track, but I have achieved NONE of those … Continue reading About me
Hello! Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton After years of reading other brave women's blogs about their journey to motherhood I have taken the plunge and decided to start writing myself. Check out Stirrup Queens’ amazing blogroll I have found so many great blogs and resources here. Hoping … Continue reading The Journey Begins